Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Days: 4, 5, 6, and 7
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Day 3:
V8 Fusion
Lunch: V8 Fusion
Exercise: 1 mile jog, moderate aerobics
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Diner: V8 Fusion
Today was a goo day! I weighed myself and i'm happy to say I have dropped 10 pounds. I am currently 155 pounds. I was 167 before my whole exercise thing started. I happy I'm 155!!!:} I am so happy i'm loosing weight. I do not regret changing up my diet to a liquid diet; all the exercise and no eating is working!
Starting tomorrow my body might start going into starvation mode and i'm nervous about that. I don't know if i will get extra hungry or sick; i'm a ball of nerves. My metabolism is totally going to become slower starting tomorrow. Anyways, the whole liquid diet thing is suppose to help me maximize/improve my metabolism efficiency.
I can't wait to drop the remaining 30 pounds!!! I'm excited to be slim:}. All the money i'm spending on a trainer/gym/drinks is all worth it in the end. The final result "moi" will be spectacular.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Relaitionships
Boyfriend Name Age Everything we did
- Boy in the motherland 4 yrs old Fingered each other, play sex (Not Serious)
- Ney York Guy 12yrs old Kissed, helled hands (Not Serious)
- Hill 14 yrs old Kissed (Not Serious)
- Thomas 15 yrs old Kissed (Not Serious)
- George 27yrs old Kissed, hanky panky (Sorta serious. He cheated on his girlfriend with me and he had 6 kids)
- E**m 24yrs old Kissed, Hanky panky (playful, fun relaitionship, not serious)
- Sol**** 19 yrs old Kissed, LOTZ & LOTZ OF hanky panky (THE LOVE OF MY LIFE...MY FIRST LOVE)
- H***ert 34yrs old Kissed, hanky panky (Serious but I didn't love him. He is a successful chemical
engineer, very loving but i just didn't want to be with him and not truly love
him. He also had two kids from his ex wife which I didn't really care about and of
course the age differncewas a factor in me creaking up with him.)
The only guy I am going to talk more about is Sol**** becasue he was the first man I have ever loved with all my heart and soul.
Sol****'s Good Traits
- He was 19 yrs old. He will be 20 yrs old in December.
- He is from Senegal.
- He is a tall, sexy chocholate man
- Low hair cut, he has waves
- Respectful
- Sweet
- Patient
- He put up with my crap
- He got me a diamond necklace for my birthday. We had only been going out for 2 months.
- Loving to his mother, father, and siblings
- Hard working
His not so good traits
- Stuborn
- Hard headed
- Not serious about school:{
- Too focused on working not school
- He's Muslim. He wasn't too happy with my convertion to christianity
- He's not too focused
- Not determined
- He's illegal:{
- Not detailed
WHAT I LOVED ABOUT HIM DISPITE ALL ELSE WAS:
>>>>He understood me, He always answered his phone when I called(ALWAYS). He knew all sides of me and loved it<<<<
What broke us up?
He's illegal and he is also not focused on school. All he wanted to do was play soccer and I was not ready to go any further with him if he didn't change his attitude toward school and he didn't so I decided we should break up.
And the Sukey thing is I miss him ALOT. I love this guy so much. I mean I don't think I can ever find someone who will accept all my faults and still love me. Besides God He was the only guy who truly cared about me but he just wasn't focused on planning his future. He just wanted to have fun now and then work hard later on, which is not cool with me. I want to plan my life now, work hard now and retire early. I want to have a good life which he also did but he didn't see a need to be so focused at 19 years old. I was too focused for him and he loved it and hated it. He felt i was nagging him.
Right now I'm thinking about what to invest in now and later on in the future, how much can I safe up this year, what can I cut back on to safe more money, what careers will be in demand in 10 years, what companies give the best employee benefits/employee growth and development, how can I pay $0 for school, what grades do i need in biology and statistics to get a 4.0 GPA, what can I do to make dang sure I attend an Ivy League school free of charge? these are the things running through my mind. This is how i want him to think. I want to date a successful man. A determined man. If he was good at soccer I would have stayed with him and pushed him to go to school part time at least but he wasn't good at soccer.
He never went to practice, he was getting out of shape, he wasn't saving any money at all, and he was illegal. I just got confused as to if he really cared or if he wanted his papers. I'm still confused but I didn'twant to take the risk.
I was so depressed from our break up that I just stopped taking care of myself. and by that I mean I don't dress up like i used to. i only wear sweatpants and t-shirts. I don't do my hair or wear makeup anymore.I just wake up and go. I was putting all my focus into school and sadly eating a lot whenever i was ultra depressed. I just went of the wagon. And to put the icing on the cake I got tipsy with some friends at a school leadership conference and called him and told him I love him. And (tear drops, tear drops, tear drops) he told me he had to get of the phone cause his girlfriend was next to him. According to my friends I cried like a baby and cried myself to sleep.
The next day after I had sobered up I called him and told him i was drunk that's why i called i said that cause i was tipsy he said he didn't take what i said seriously and he just hung up.
I was heart broken and so just to satisfy my curiosity, i went on his online profile to see if he has anything of me on there and he did.He had all the comments I had ever written him on his page untouched. That helped me a lot. At least I knew he didn't totally hate me. If he did that would be the first thing he would have delete. Or it could just mean he really doesn't care.
I should also add that a few weeks after we broke up he text me and told me " I will always love you. no matter what. you are the first girl I ever really cared about and loved. and he send me a picture of myself with I love you on there".
That tore me to pieces but i could really say much because at the time i was dating Her***t "the skin head"...hehehe A day after i broke up with Sol**** I was dating Her****. It's Scandalous but i was lonely and didn't know how to be single. I was used to jumping from onw relationship to another but i decided to learn to face my problems. and broke up with her***t. I am now learning day by day how to love myself and be happy single.
I now know it is possible to be single and be happy!!!
Day 2:
Day 2
Breakfast
Hot water with lime
Lunch
V8 Fusion
Exercise
None- My school work took longer then I thought:{ so I couldn't go.
Diner
v8 Fusion
Lime with hot water
Reflection:
Day 1: Weight loss
Today was a really good day. I had no hunger pains and a lot of energy. I worked out a lot today with my trainer. He and I worked with 3pounds, 5pounds, and fifteen pounds weights. We worked on a ball, did LOTS of lunges and squats to work my gluts. We also did sit ups and crunches to work my abs.
I also did my aerobics class today, it was loads of fun as always and I had more energy then usual. I also worked out as usual on the treadmill and elliptical for two hours. According to both cardio machines I burned 500 calories but I do not believe those machines so I usually divide whatever i get by 2 and thus I burned a total of 250 calories.
Between the machines, my 1 hour aerobic class and my trainer I presumably burned around 700 calories.
I consumed 400 calories and burned 700 calories today so today was a good day:} A 300 calorie deficit sounds great. Lets see how tomorrow shall be.
I'm really tired right now but I have to study for my art test on Tuesday:{ Wish me luck on the test.
Intro/ Weight Loss
My name is Amie and I am 19 years old
- I was born in October of 1989. I am not telling the day.
- I am a college sophomore looking to transfer out of a local community college to hopefully Yale.
- I was born somewhere in West Africa. I am not telling what country.
- I am one of three kids.
- I live in MD.
- My dad is a renaissance man (he has done everything one can imagine and succeeded. He has been a lawyer, judge, entrepreneur, writer, philanthropist, architect, chief justice, plumber...hehe, the list goes on) and my mom is a "stay at home mom" and a professional student"...lol.. All my mom does is go to school. She is currently working on her PhD.
- I am a practicing Christian....I love my Jesus.
Things I love/Find Attractive
- My relationship with Jesus Christ
- Reading my Bible/Church service/Bible Study
- My family
- Talking about how awesome God is
- Praying
- Having Platonic fun
- Reading books about God
- Dogs (Small, cute and hairy)
- Food..all kinds as long as it taste good.
- Success
- Traveling
- Obedience
- Cooking
- Competition
- Hard work
- Patience
- Tolerance
- Unconditional Love of God
- Grace of God
- Being Anal
- The male human anatomy:}
- Punctual
- Detail
- Creativity
- Truth/Honesty
- Curiosity
- Discipline
Things I'm not pleased with/ Don't find attractive
(I DON'T HATE ANY OF THE THINGS BELOW, HATE IS A STRONG WORD AND IS NOT APPROPRIATE)
- Disrespect
- Tardiness
- Ignorance
- Crimes
- Disbelieve in existence of God/Jesus
- My current weight
- lies
- Failure
- Thieves
- Prejudice
- Hate
- Cockiness
- Hair braids/dreadlocks on men
- Too much pride/Arrogance
- Long, loud colored finger nails...ewww
- Impatience
- Jealousy
- Cuss words
- Sin
- Ghetto people
- Gossip
- lazy people
- fake people
- The words "I can't" or "Its impossible"
- cats, all pets besides dogs
- Anything made out of wool
- Anyone who denies their race/ethnicity
My greatest fears
- Going to hell
- Ending up unmarried and without kids
- Failure
- Not finding "My missing rib"
- Not graduating from an Ivy League
- My family remaining Muslim and not finding Christ.
- Not loosing weight
My greatest regrets
- I am no regrets. I have made bad decision but I learned from them. I have no regrets becasue I won't be who I am if not for mistakes I made.
This is my first blog post ever so I'm a bit nervous and excited (mixed emotions). My blog is mainly about my weight loss journey which i have dubbed "no more super size" but I will definitely blog about news at my school, my relationships, religion, transferring to a four year institution, and my family drama. I am writing this blog for three reasons; firstly, I need a way to express what I am going through because my friends find it hard to believe i want to lose weight, and are getting annoyed when i start talking about my weight loss issues. Secondly, I need positive support. Besides the obvious benefits of having positive support; reading supportive messages and blogging helps me stay busy and keeps my mind of food and eating. Lastly, I need to let everything I am feeling inside out before I explode.
My reasons for losing weight
1) I am over weight
- According to my eyesight and the CDC (Center for Disease Control), I am overweight. The CDC clearly says "An adult who has a BMI between 25 and 29.9 is considered overweight." My BMI is 26.2!!!!
2) I want to be strong, healthy, and slim (lean)
- Right now I cant run a mile! or do one push up! (I am not exaggerating this) I need to increase my strength and build more muscle. Other wise 35 years or more down the road I will have a hunch back and won't even have strong muscles to simply lift up a pencil.
- By the grace of God ( Jesus Christ) I am healthy (and by healthy I mean that I have no health problems i.e. diabetes/STD/HIV/AIDS/Cancer/High Cholesterol/Back problems/etc) but the problem is that I have no body strength what so ever.
- I'm not looking to run a marathon or bench press 1000 pounds; i just want to at least be able to run a mile non stop or do 1 single push up!!!!
Healthy
- Before I started my weight loss all I ate was fast food and nothing else. In addition, I super sized everything, which was absolutely ridiculous....I want to eat healthier foods like i eat now like fruits and vegetables and drink lots of water. I also am working on portion control which isn't a feat that motivation/determinations/drive can cure. Only Self-Control can help me with my portion control.
Slim
- I absolutely do not want to look like Paris Hilton or Nicole Richie cause they are way too skinny for me and look unhealthy. I am proud of Nicole for her weight loss but she is way too skinny. My ideal body type is that of Selita Ebanks, Iman and Jessica White.
3) I want to be Smokin Hot not just warm<<<--- In all honesty this is the real reason and ultimate motivation for me losing weight<<<---
- I turn heads when i walk down the street but that is all I do. I want to make people hearts skip a beat, jaws to drop, eyes to pop out their sockets and be amazed at moi:} (moi is the french word for me). I also want my ex boyfriend to see me looking umm umm good and way better then his new girlfriend.
- I am sick of being average!!!! I don't just want to turn heads I want the whole exorcist 360 degree head turn thingamajig. Get ready to pull the fire alarm because I am going to be smoking hot! (sizzle)
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